2018 has turned into 2019. The calendar still announced 2017 a moment ago. 2020 is as surely to follow and in but a few turns of tide, so do the veils of Death.
For many, 2019 marks the heaviest point in history as every year prior. Many recognize existence as apocalyptic, shrouded in mystery, spotted in decadence. Solid ground lost all but strictly figurative meaning.
Others see an exciting period of innovation, transformation, hope. Some consider each new year, each moment the best yet.
One may own nothing, yet feel appreciative, glorious, enlightened, liberated. One may, on the other hand, be privileged with all modern spoil society has to offer, all the while wrought to nihilism.
One may likewise undertake varying roles with time. After much perseverance, a pawn becomes the queen only to find itself immediately deposed. Another pawn might accidentally become the queen, live to reap great glory only to ultimately remain indifferent.
Some seek a defining strategy, varying direction in response to changing circumstance, only to lose all sight of pursuit. Others pursue nothing and yet attain much. Many attain precisely what they don’t want, employed much artifice to avoid it, when an otherwise entirely random set of factors would not as much as hint at such an unlikely fate.
Theatrical, how one may exert notable effort to not only avoid but appear to sabotage the deed, all the while deemed a perfectionist. What is it I once wrote and possibly plagiarized? One has to not want the thing they want in order to attain it, and one certainly must not ask for it.
Believe in the total freedom of choice. Believe in the necessarily restricted freedom. Believe in total determinism. Perceive the freedom as inhibiting; chains as liberating. Subscribe to complex models or yield to naive simplifications in midst of recognized unknowns. Meticulously pursue or eliminate. Restart randomly, geometrically or follow your own heuristic. Acknowledge meaning or disregard. Gradually occupy your mind, aggressively seek emptiness or appeal to any combination.
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